Cynthia's Story

Somewhere I read that fear was the leaning towards believing in the devil, rather than the faith in the lord. When I heard this, it was like a lightning bolt went through me. I hadn’t considered that before, and even though I have been a Christian for most of my life, I was entirely devoted to fear. The fear of pretty much anything, really. Starting something new and beginning a new journey into another city I had never lived in before. It was like my own personal little devil inside me keeping me from all that I was meant to achieve in this lifetime. Almost like the way our brains contradict new concepts and ideas in our heads the moment a new thought comes in, it is overshadowed by the brain’s ability and job to intricately protect us from foreign potential threats.

But the real threat is simply never going after that which we long to see take place in our own lives. We stay stagnant for far too long. Some of us, forever. I am beginning to learn that we are literally throwing away moments that are very, very precious when we choose to simply not take the action needed to get out there and just do the things we want to. Many of us, super skilled in the ways we have told ourselves and others that we are simply too busy, to get to do, conditioning the subconscious part of ourselves that it all just isn’t in the cards for us.

Perhaps the greatest challenge most of us in this life will face is the person that stares back at us every day in the morning. That waits, waits for us to speak, waits for us, to acknowledge they are there, waits for us to have that grand much-needed conversation, that stirs us the greatest challenge we will ever overcome within. The challenge is this.

It’s the challenge of oneself. It’s the knowing of oneself. It’s the quiet time you are afraid to sit with alone because the thoughts challenge you. Not your ability to make it happen, but have challenged you to believe that you really, really can. Now here comes the part that comes after the moment you begin, to overcome your own belief on whether you think you can or can’t. It’s saying that I WILL.